I’m $1500.00 poorer after my visit to Cherise. It’s crazy that I keep doing this with her, but I guess I have a soft spot somewhere. Maybe it’s because she’s so much fun? Or maybe she is so dependent on me that I like that control over her? I dunno what it is that keeps me coming back for more with Cherise. She doesn’t seem to want to get up other own feet and move forward. Anyway, I had trouble sleeping last night because of the Adderal that I took, so Cherise got me drunk and gave me a Xanax from her collection of pills in the medicine cabinet. She has a pill for everything it seems. Hydromorphone, Valium, Ativan, Doxepin, Seroquel, Percocet, and the list goes on. You need an upper, she’s got the Adrenal, or if you need to go down, just choose the Ativan or Valium, unless you want a soft landing, in which case, choose the Clonazepam. The Seroquel will knock you off your butt and put you to sleep. Need a mood changer? Try some Dilaudid or Percocet. It turns out that Cherise has had several Emergency Department visits for different ailments in the past months. I ran across her visit slips in one of her drawers as she slept. Back pain, abdominal pain, endometriosis, migraine headache, and even dental pain were on her list of visits, each one resulting in a prescription for pain medication or anxiety medication or some other mood stabilizer it seems. Yet, Cherise is so intelligent and seems to have no depression or anxiety-type behaviors – what am I missing here? Maybe she has some addictive problems – it may very well be, but at the moment, it is hard for me to see that with the way she seems to be so functional when we are together.
Today, when I finally got up, Cherise was sitting quietly on the couch, glasses on, reading a book by Leo Tolstoy. I barely recognized her compared with the wild, disinhibited woman I was with last night! What a difference – I mean, I love them both!
No one is perfect. I truly believe that. I had just gotten used to being with Cherise for the past days, and now I’m off again back to home…