I awoke in the middle of the day in my bed laying in a pool of sweat. I am so stressed about everything. After I left Angela, I figured I could make everything work out just fine. Whatever happens to the baby happens, and I don’t have to marry her right now necessarily. Let time wage it’s chaos. I must say that time has created chaos in my life right now. I have procrastinated with my bills, and now I have major credit problems. Before I laid down to sleep, I ran through some of my stuff, and I don’t know where to get money from right now. I jumped out of bed and started pacing endlessly until it was time to go to work. I thought I would catch some sleep before work, but apparently not.
So I’m tired and foggy-headed now at work that I hope I don’t make a mistake. Six cups of coffee hasn’t done it, and I can’t sit without falling asleep. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to finish the shift. I called my friend, Tom, briefly to get some calming advice. When he heard my problem about being exhausted, he offered to bring me some Adderal, which I willingly accepted. An hour later, I am just fine and wide awake. Tom has been a life saver on several occasions for me. We had to reschedule a meet-up to talk about things because of my work schedule, and I am going to see Cherise tomorrow .
My patient population is the same as always. Bad behavior: drugs, alcohol, and mental issues or a combination. The results are predictable with there being an assault with injury, overdose, abdominal pain and headache, fall, or an motor vehicle accident occurring from the general impairment of the person. My star for the night was a 40-some year-old guy who comes in at 4 A.M. with a dissociated shoulder. He comes in every several days with the same and wears a house-arrest braclet on. He has no IV access because all of his veins have been burned out over the years by drug use, so it is a pain in the neck to get anything done on him. I usually cannot restore his shoulder, and he leaves against medical advice after a few shots of Dilaudid. Of course he is able to reduce his own shoulder because it is always in place in other visits that follow. What he really does is go out on the streets and seek drugs or cause some chaos, then he auto-dislocates his shoulder and comes in to be seen by ambulance. He lives nearby so it is convenient to catch an ambulance from wherever, and also he has an excuse for being out of the house as well! After he is done in the Emergency Department, he just walks home and has documentation proving where he was – in the Emergency Department! According to this guy, he killed a man many years ago. What a gentleman and scholar.
The shift went by quickly. I didn’t want to go home. I don’t want to sleep. Every day that passes is one day closer to the birth of my child. Scary. I laid down in my bed with my heart pounding and coming out of my mouth. I can’t stop thinking, and all I could do was roll around in the bed for about an hour before I finally fell asleep. I got about three hours before my alarm went off, as I had to load up the car to go to Cherise’s house. I kinda looked forward to an escape, and the drive was certainly therapeutic.
Cherise was absolutely enthralled to see me, as I was to see her. We hugged, kissed, rubbed, and …..An hour later, we were under her blue, soft sheets, laying naked on top each other. I had just pulled out moments earlier when her door was knocked on. Cherise looked panicked and said ‘Keep quiet…I’m sick of solicitors.” After a few knocks later, a pair of footsteps disappeared in the distance , and Cherise became more normal. That’s when Cherise began to talk to me of her need to move. She owed a lot of money in back-rent and had received eviction notices despite my help for her. Her problem was getting a new place, which required a letter from the current rental agent. Good luck with that. What came out of this was Cherise wrote a letter on a borrowed letterhead of her rental agent, in which she ‘highly recommended’ herself. Cherise had carefully signed the letter in the name of her current leasing agent and sent it to the new landlord. My phone number and email was used as a confirmation contact number, in case the new rental agent had any questions. The only thing Cherise needed now was $1500.00 for a down payment. That was a very painful check to write given my current financial situation. After I wrote it, I laid Cherise down on the bed again and plunged into her firm, rounded butt, taking pleasure until I came. Although she moaned in pain, she grinded against me with each thrust, knowing that I had saved her from eviction. That was make-up sex without a fight!